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Thrilling Thursday in the ghetto

Its been awhile since I blogged last and figured now is as good a time as any to fill you all in. So here we go with yesterdays excitement.

Yesterday started off normal, I thought about taking the kids to story time at the library but then remembered that trin still has a fever so we just stayed home. Normal nothingness for the rest of the day. Daniel gets home and the kids go down for a nap.

All Normal until I notice shadow had been barking for a longer then normal amount of time so I got up to go check. I see a group of high school kids sitting on the wall by my house. I watch them through the window cause I know the people in my neighborhood aren’t always the greatest. I hear one kid say “yea look there’s a brick over there…” he hops the wall into the parking lot beside my house so I go over and swing that door up “to shush my dog” which scares the crap out of the boy and his friend heading over to grab the brick which I can only assume is going to be used as a weapon. Needless to say they didn’t get the brick and I stood in the door way staring at them for a bit then came inside.

I Called 911 after that to let them know a group of 20 minors and at least 2 adults were sanding outside my house who looked like they are up to no good. Yes I’m a paranoid old person but with obvious good reason. I went and woke daniel up letting him know what was going on and I had just called the cops. I Asked if he could get up while we wait for them to show up. First 911 call was at a little after 3pm.

I went out front “to check the mail” really I wanted to see what they were up to from a different angle. My mom needed someone to pick her up after work and I wrote her a text and told her that daniel could go get her after the kids left or the cops showed up. A few more kids showed up and hung out for a while. Then at about 4pm 3 cars full of people showed up. I noticed the group was getting agitated so I called 911 while moving to the front yard. Its Kinda easy to “blend in” when they are all in fight mode cause they kinda get tunnel vision. So I’m standing in my drive way telling dispatch the situation has now changed cause 3 cars just pulled up with people that have bats and a machete. Once the machete dude lunges at a guy who goes and stands behind daniel on the porch while I start yelling. Don’t quote me I don’t remember exactly what was said  I just know it had some profanity in it and it startled them all enough to stop for a moment. They “regrouped” and started again. This happens a few more times. The 911 operator asks “ma’am who are you yelling at” to which I replied “the ‘effing’ kids trying to stab people in my front yard!” Bla Bla Bla I yell at a few more kids when one says “why don’t you call the cops then!!!!” So I waved my phone at him and said “who the ‘eff’ do you think I’m talking to!!!” Thats when they all try and reassure me that nothings going on and that everything and everyone is OK.

They hop in their cars and drive off. I let dispatch know the vehicles that are being driven and in what direction they are headed. The kid that almost got stabbed along with his group of friends went just 3 doors down from us. Yay for living so close to such awesome people!

While I was yelling I noticed a small trickle of fluids running down my leg. ***warning TMI approaching*** probably wouldn’t have noticed if I wasn’t in a dress without underwear on. Sorry you were warned. I remember thinking (while yelling) ‘holy cow did I just pee a little while yelling… (which I was doing at the top of my lungs and if you know me at all you know that is pretty freaking loud) ‘or did my water just break?’ After everyone left and I finally got off the phone with 911 daniel and I stayed outside waiting for the cops, which never showed,  and watching to see what else happened. While standing outside I start getting some pretty awesome contractions so I go inside to go pee cause I feel pressure, but don’t actually pee. Check what liquid is on my leg no oder so I think “maybe that was my water”. I go tell daniel what’s going on then run a bath, call my mom to let her know A. What just happened outside the house B. I think my water broke and C. We will come get her in a sec. I call my obs office to see what they want me to do and the conversation goes something like this “so funny question. there was a near stabbing in my front yard and I think my water may have broke while I was yelling at them…” she butts in “you need to go to the hospital” oh alright. All i wanted to do was soak in the tub. So now I have to sit in the tub while my brother gets home to pick up my kids and go get my mom from work. I then text some family members to let them know what’s going on. All the while the contractions have let up enough I don’t feel like I’m being ripped in half but still close and uncomfortable. My brother shows up; daniel and I leave for the hospital.  while parkingat the hospital  RPD calls me to ask if im still in the area. I informed her that no i was not cause i think my water broke and im having contractions. I let them know once again that a group of the people involved are just 3 doors down from where I live. She asks if I was hurt I told her no then she wanted to know if I was already at the hospital. like she’s gonna send out an ambulance or something. Ha no thanks I see how fast you guys responded to my first two calls, I’ll handle this one on my own.

I get there and have NO CLUE where I’m to go. I’ve only been to Parkview a handful of times and that was when my sister was pregnant 7 yrs ago!!! Good place to start is the ER. they send me to admitting where I wait about 20-30 mins to get that handled. Lame!!! Do you know how hard it is to fill out paperwork and answer question while in pain. Grrr. By the time they get a bed cleaned and me all hooked up I’m now only having mild contractions and slight pressure. she swabs for fluids; did you know amniotic fluid makes a fern leaf like pattern when it dries on a microscope slide. I love odd info. Anywho after that dries we know it wasn’t my water that broke just my fat broke body unable to “contain” it self under “pressure”. Lol gotta love being pregnant. Had to wait to get a second opinion on the fluids and then wait for a doc to check my out. By the time that happened @ 9ish I was only having braxton hicks type contractions and pretty much no more pressure so I told him I feel fine I’m ready to go home. (Oh p.s. there was a nurse shift change while I was there and when she came in to introduce herself and see how I was going I started to tell her “well you see what happened was…” she said “oh I heard all about the excitement”. Lol so did the doc, maybe they over heard me telling my dad when he showed up. I let them know I had a Ob appointment scheduled for Friday which they thought was great so home I went after stopping to get Carl’s Jr cause I was STARVING!!!!

so I hope you enjoyed the exciting tales of the ghetto S.A.H.M. Love you all and thanks for all your prayers and concerns.

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I’m ba-ak

So the last time I posted what in July and man have things changed.

For starters I got a job! Oct 4th was my 1st day on the job. It took a few weeks before I no longer wanted to blow everything and everyone up that ever had anything shipped to them or that lived on a dirt road. Dont worry Lossings my love for you stayed true. 🙂 I work at GSO “the best overnight package delivery company in the west” (its what our claim is call 8003225555 and hear for yourself lol) the hours are pretty short and the pay is good I just hate being a working mom. I love my job its fasted paced, always changing, and a lot like race whats the fastest and most efficient way to get this done and I don’t a boss breathing down my neck I use my own car and when I’m done I just head home its great. But I HATE not being with my kids. I’m not the mom who needs to have a job to get a break from kids. Do I need breaks? YES!! but not a 20 hr a week break that gets me up at 6 am.  I hate not being with them when they 1st wake up when they are sweet calm and cuddly. lol I dont know how career moms do it the long hours at work, the school/practice pick ups and drop offs, the school projects, family fun activities, house work and cooking. I just dont have it in me.

second I cant remember if I blogged about this before but Daniel got laid off in about may-ish (idk anything anymore my brain is goo) anywhoo daniel now also works for GSO doing a pm pick up route so I get home anywhere from 1pm -230pm and he leave at 230pm-3pm and gets home around 8pm. when of course we are all getting ready for bed. not much FAMILY time anymore. This is also something I dont know people do. I know of tons of people who have the alternating parenting/employee schedule as their spouse and its horrible in my opinion. Daniel works Mon-Fri and I work Tue-Sat we have 1 day together that doesnt involve one of us heading to work. Also we only have one vehicle now. When daniel got laid off we had to have my brother in law take over the payments on daniels truck. hopefully we will get a little beater when we get our tax refund. fingers crossed its not too much of a beater and is actually helpful. 🙂

In sept our roommates moved to Oregon when he got a job up there after a long and hard search in cali with no luck.  Our lease is up in March and unless we get better paying jobs we will be moving. I dreed moving and lord help me if the kids beds give me any trouble I’m burning them and the kids can just sleep with us!

which brings me to my next point (no I’m not pregnant thank God) Daniel worked on a damage for HCI right before Christmas it was as he was hired by some other company tella something cuase if he was to work for HCI again it would take 6 weeks for paperwork and all that good stuff and they needed him just 2 hours so he “got a job” with tella something and off he went 24 hours of work and done. 😦 but it was SOO helpful! we are hoping for more work to come in like this or to get rehired with HCI or EVEN BETTER get the ATT job he applied for on friday. Hes applied with them before and never got further then the “thanks for contacting us we’ll keep your resume on file” point but he got one step further this time and we are waiting to hear back. I think he should call or contact them in a few days just to keep himself at the top of the “list” so to say.  If he did get the job with ATT it would just be temporary like 4-6 months but it would be$36 an hour which is almost twice what he made with HCI (i know taboo to talk about how much you make but poo on taboo I’m excited!) And hey you never know sometimes temp becomes perm so lots of praying going on over here.

If/when we move we will be staying in or near elsinore. we like it out here and its not really added much travel time to our normal everyday fun and stuff with our peeps in riverside. UNLESS of course its during rush hour then we are SCREWED but luckily most things dont happen around then so we are good. lol

Christmas was so much fun this year nothing too big or wild and crazy but just plan fun and heart warming. like I said before daniel was working right before christmas he worked christmas eves eve and christmas eve but they were from 6pm to 6am so he made it home just before the kids woke up and we had a WONDERFUL family christmas in our own place for the 1st time it was AWESOME! the kids were so grateful and joyful. we had to remind the kids a few times that they needed to open more presents. I’m sure this will change as the kids get older but I really enjoyed it. side note my desire for next yr is to do that 3 gifts thing its 1 gift they want 1 thing they need and 1 thing for them to share. and thats it. I will not accept anything else. LOL we just have so much stuff and I’m almost a hoarder so I have a hard time getting rid of things cause “hey look they still play with it” and also why spoil them take the money you have spent on them and put it in your savings account lord knows this countries going down the toilet.  but seriously if I could get the extended family to obey this life would be golden. Trin kept saying “its gonna snow then its gonna be christmas” we had to keep reminding her we dont get snow in SoCal but we’ve been having surprisingly cold weather so secretly we were praying it would snow on christmas even if it didnt stay as long as it feel from the sky but allas it didnt. 😦

It was fun having the kids birthdays in our own home this yr made things so much easier.

I got a new phone cause the tmobile guy sucks and didnt try to get my “broken” working again. after buying a new phone outright (nice commision for mr tmobile) daniel did a quick hard restart and got it working again. LAME SAUCE!

ok I’m just rambling the kids are up from their naps now so my attention is elsewhere.

my fatness

So since I had micah I’ve yo yo’d back a forth in my weight but never going past my heaviest while still pregnant with him. Since that weight I’ve lost 38 lbs. 20 of that in the past month. (HCG diet) I have 20 still to go before I reach my previous fattest weight and 20 to go after that before I reach my pre pregnancy weight. what makes me the saddest is I’ve lost those 20 lbs and I still feel discusting. 😦 I’m happy though that the last time I weighed this much I was just over mid way through my pregnancy with trin. so it’s been a while. still fat and nasty but just slightly less fat and nasty.

SRSLY

no no no no NASTY!! moobow

Gallbladder

I went to see the surgeon today and he said ultimately it’s my decision. 😦 which sucks cause I don’t want surgery but there is no way I want to have another attack! DANG IT this sucks! He said it’s all up to how much pain I can handle. grrr!!!! He says there can be complications from not having it out but that there also can be complications from getting it out! This is probably one of the hardest decisions I’ve had to make ever!!

Pissed

I should not have to fight with the bank to get my money back! SO EFF you I’m out!! going to go close the account on Monday. GRRRR I COULD NOT BE MORE PISSED!!

see I told you

So when the topic of breastfeeding comes up and I say I would love to exclusively breastfeed but just don’t have enough milk glands they look at me like I’m insane (*cough* mother in law) and it’s just an excuse to not be good at it. I tried very hard with Trinity. There is nothing I would love to do more then to solely breastfeed my babies especially cause of the digestive problems they have. well I finally looked up the issue I have. Which if you know me is odd that I didn’t come home that day from the lactation specialist and look it up but seeing as I was in the middle of a mental break down from being inadequate and trying to nurse a 6 day old I just didn’t seem to have time or the desire. Well today I finally found the time and the desire to look it up so about 10 seconds on google and I had my answer. It’s called tubular hypoplastic breast/mammary hypoplasia/breast hypoplasia/hypoplastic breasts

do you think the use of plastic in my boobie issue means I need to get breast implants. I think it’s a good argument. 😉

heres what I got from the 1st site I checked out. (beware you will learn more about my breasts then you ever wanted to know. 😉 )

Tubular hypoplastic breast

There is one exception to the rule about breast size/shape and breastfeeding ability, and that is that few women have insufficient glandular tissue in their breasts. In other words they simply don’t have enough milk producing cells, and these women can then experience milk supply problems. This condition is called breast hypoplasia or hypoplastic breasts.

This kind of breast is underdeveloped (hypoplastic) in terms of the milk glands. They lack normal fullness and may look like ’empty sacks’, and may seem bulbous or swollen at the tip.  Many times hypoplastic breasts are widely spaced from each other, and narrow at the chest wall. Due to lack of glandular tissue, they have an elongated or tubular form, and often are quite small. The areola can be enlarged. There may be a significant asymmetry.  The breasts don’t grow during pregnancy and there is no engorgement when the milk is supposed to come in after giving birth.

Scientists don’t yet know for sure the reason(s) for this underdevelopment. One theory is that at least in some women it would be linked to too little progesterone, since progesterone mediates the growth of alveoli (milk making glands).

In a 2006 study in Mexico, teenage girls who lived in the agricultural valley with heavy pesticide use had poor mammary gland development, and 18.5% of them had NO milk glands.

Other issues include PCOS and other insulin metabolism issues, hypothyroidism, and testosterone overload. Fixing the metabolic issues may help, as might pushing lots of stimulation to increase prolactin levels after birth.

There is also one interesting case reproted in the medical literature where a woman with such underdeveloped breasts was able to successfully nurse her second child, after being given natural progesterone during her second pregnancy. Progesterone stimulates the growth of the glandular tissue in breasts during pregnancy.

If you happen to have these tubular hypoplastic (under-developed) breasts, talk to a lactation consultant before giving birth. Even better, talk to a doctor before pregnancy about a possible natural progesterone treatment. There are measures you can take to try increase your milk supply and your chances of breastfeeding, such as

  • have an unmedicated birth if possible, and put the baby to the breast right after birth
  • nurse often and on cue
  • start to pump about three days after birth
  • try the herbs fenugreek and blessed thistle or the drug domperidone
  • breast compression technique to stimulate more letdowns
  • Correct underlying metabolic or hormonal issues (PCOS, hypothyroidism). One lady has posted her success story below; she was able to see breast changes during her 2nd pregnancy and subsequently breastfeed, after taking Metformin to correct her PCOS.

(which I did all of these religiously with Trinity and it did nothing)

Discuss these and other options with the lactation consultant.  You may need to supplement with formula,so it is important to observe the baby’s output of wet and dirty diapers and weight gain to make sure the baby is getting enough nutrition. Remember also to be happy for whatever breast milk you produce and not blame yourself – even a little is better than none!  And if you don’t get any milk at all (which does happen), remember it’s not your fault.  For this kind of situation we are thankful that the baby formula exists.

Plastic surgeons try to take the most out of women with hypoplastic breasts. Since it is a true medical condition, they try to push these women to get implants to correct the deformity. Having hypoplastic breasts is not any dangerous condition. They look different, and as explained above, women with hypoplastic/tubular breasts often have difficulties in producing enough milk.

It is understandable to feel bad when you have deformed breasts, and there’s nothing wrong if you wish to have it corrected. Unfortunately the implants will only lessen the milk supply and the probability of successful breastfeeding, besides forcing the woman to go through several surgeries throughout her lifetime, and putting her to a high risk of serious complications and diseases.