I’m a Wife and a mother.

k shes always funny but today shes beem extra funny. we started the day at 630 took a bath and its been pretty normal until we started watching disney movies. lets see if can remember everything
1) she’s a little scared while watching the lion king and then cries when its over and wants to watch it again.
2) while watching beauty and the beast she goes to go potty and tells me she wants a dressing room.
3) shes starts to play while still watching the movie and comes over to me witha breast pump and asks me lift my shirt. i tell her know she gets sad and tells me she’s hungry.
4) shes playing beauty and the beast with the toys afterwards shes so cute. we got video of it. she is a little bit odd but man shes cute.
5) i have tea lights burning upstairs and she blew them out so they dont burn her but she wants daniel to put fire in her sleeves so she can be the candle.

had to write about this stuff before it left my brain forever. my memory is just not what it use to be. having kids has eaten my brain. hope it sounds as funny to u as it was for.

Went in for the colposcopy appointment today loved the doc she was funny and communicated well. long story and pretty uncomfortable event I had 3 areas biopsied and some out of the ordinary bleeding. I should hear back from her by the end of next week. We did talk about endometriosis but we’ll know for sure *fingers crossed* what it really is in a week. thanks for the prayers.

tomorrow I head in for my colposcopy and I don’t have any real emotions about it, not scared, not anxious, just ready to go to the doc. hope everything goes pretty smoothly we wanna try and head over to dland for a few hrs afterwards. hope thats not a bad idea. and if we dont go to dland thats ok cause we have trunk or treat at sandals at 6 anyways.
I was talking with a friend from map today about when I will have results and the answer to that is IDK. :^/ I will however know if there is anything they think is an issue right away. The results from the biopsy though I don’t know.
So you will know when I know.

I wrote an email to my doc and her nurse wrote back on her behalf asking me to call to get a better understanding of my question and to better answer my questions. So heres the skinny
*yes it was a normal pap
*yes there was no infection
*because its a normal pap my colposcopy got rescheduled
*new appointment: oct 30th 9:30

just very frustrating. I’d like for once to go in with a medical problem and have them actually have an answer for me. I wish that since these two things were taken off the diagnostic table it lead to…an answer.
I do agree with the nurse that yes not having anything come back abnormal or ify from my pap is a good thing.

can i now post from my mobile web?

Yesterday I called and left a message for Rebecca Seawell and just my luck I missed their call back. So this morning when the phone rang I was all over it. pushing kids out of the way throwing thing. lol no not even close but I did want to get the phone call. She said my pap came back normal. “what a relieve. thats a huge weight lifted off of me!” so a few hours pass and a thought hits me. “hmmm…I wonder what the odds are of them messing up? wouldnt they have at least found the infection on the smear?” So off I went to google (my one stop shopping) and found this site that said I had less then a 3/1000 chance that she missed swabbing the precancer/cancer stuff off the cervix. “I KNEW IT!!” crazy I know but that’s where my head always goes. they missed that I had hyperthyroidism for a few yrs until I nearly died when I was 16. they mistook my gallbladder attacks as an allergy to meds I’d never had an issue to before and they cant seem to find out why I have this thumping sound in my ears. So if I go off my past history they probably missed the bad stuff on my cervix. far fetched maybe but I can’t wait to get that colposcopy done. I really think they would have been able to see the infection. Either way something is not right and they better have an answer cause I’m sick of always hearing “sorry we can’t figure out why this is happening”.

so daniels hours have slowly but surely been cut. we are now down to half the hours we’d been use to about 45-50 hrs a week now he’s at almost 30. we really missed the over time but were ok with the 40 hrs. but good grief its been hard not getting the full 40.
well all of that said im glad to report he will be back to 40 hrs and maybe even some overtime but the funny thing it’ll kinda be “demoted” hes gonna be digging ditches at his splicer pay. so at least he didn’t have to take a pay cut too. i am sad he has to work so hard. but out of all our options this t
is the best solution and he doesn’t have to keep his truck dull of all the tools and what not and he will be driving to the yard and using a work vehicle so we r gonna save tons on gas. it is a such a blessing. an odd one but still a great answer to prayer.

I admit I have never really understood Gods timing my entire life I have also wondered why things happen the way they do. You know for all kinds of things like the lose of a parents child, horrible car accidents, illnesses and what not. But its really been in pretty much my daily or at least monthly thoughts lately. Mostly revolving around children. Dont get me wrong I LOVE LOVE LOVE my kids but Daniel and I were not expecting to ever have kids and I am so grateful God chose to bless us with our 2 lovely children. But I am also sad for those who I love that would make the most awesomest parents and are in the best spiritual, emotional and financial shape sit and wait for God to bless them. I mean really now! take daniel and I we love each other yes and I think we got a pretty bangin marriage but we are BROKE! (financially) We have a very small section of home at my parents house. Then theres my sister in law they are awesome people, have a great marriage, very financially stable, both heavily involved with sandals church, both love kids very much and yet God is working in them something great I’m sure but they still wait. I read other peoples blogs and hear them talk and struggle with this and I have to admit I have a hard time understanding why God has given us children and not them. I don’t want this to sound like I am not oh so grateful for my children cause I am but my heart breaks for them. does this sound crazy?! I think the issue I am having has to do mainly with not understanding why God would want to bless me. Dont really know where I was going with this but its been on my heart for a while.

sorry I have horrible grammar and what not but this is how it comes out of my head.

so today I finally made it into a well baby check up for micah. he has been to one since his 3 month on. Gasp I know. But I believe most vaccines are givin to early so we wait a little and I just happened to wait a little too long. lol and I just keep forgetting. She said “wow its been a while. how long has it been? Really that long where you been?” I told her “out of my mind” it was very different when it was just one kid but with two so close in age its melted my brain.
Anywho Micah is 23.7 lbs (70th percentile) 29 inches (49th percentile) and 17.5″ head cercumfrance (13th percentile) he has not changed percentile since he was born! after the nurse took his messurments and weight she said ok you can put a diaper back on. I went diggin couldnt find one and said “are you serious!” she asked what size he was and went and got him one. Gotta love kid oriented establishments. guess its better to give a way a diaper then to have to clean up poop and pee.
She loves my kids growth charts. She always says “oh look at that beautiful chart. Come take a look” Its ok that his head is small its always been that way. I told his doc I feel like trins head came out that size. hehe She asked how trinity was and I told her she never shuts her mouth. she is talking none stop. she laughed. She loves his thighs just like the rest of us do. and can’t believe how strong he is. The nurse had to struggle to hold him down to give him his shots. Then we had to go over and get some blood drawn and that was awful. poor thing was bright red tears streaming down his face and no sound coming out of his wide open mouth. life is so hard at his age.
On a different note Trinity hasnt had a poop accident since her last one on monday. I think her talking to from Chloe helped. peer pressure is great. hehe